darkest hours;

I’m in a better mood than I was yesterday but I still have no effort or energy to eat or put myself together. I just want to sign the lease, move into the house, have pizza and then chuck a movie on and fall asleep in my own room. That sounds amazing right now! :)

I have brushed my hair in like 2 days, I’ve just chucked it into a bun on top of my head. And make up, I can’t even remember the last time I’ve put it on.

I’m excited to be able to have money for my own again, I really need new shoes. My about to die and I’m a bit over the plain, black ballet flats. I want something new. Something to suit my new personality. :) I need my hair trimmed and my fringe fixed up. I need some new bras! Singlets, shorts and dresses are also on my wish this. ;)

:):)

Everything’s finally working out. Karen got a text this morning that she was accepted. I finally got my subclass number and Nick was able to tell them and now their processing our application.

Things are finally working out.

I’m going to go play minecraft because my house was somehow blown up or something.

I wouldn’t mind some asks, I feel like talking to people, giving advice. I’ll check every so often if you’d like to message me. :) It’d be quite nice actually.

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facebook is boring, tumblr is boring, youtube is boring. :| i just want to do something that’ll wake me up. 3:

I don’t know how I’m feeling. I don’t know how to describe the feeling or what it sort of feels like. All I know is that all I want to do is hide somewhere dark away from people so that they can’t hear me bawl my eyes out… and then when I finish bawling my eyes out I want to cut so deep that the blood with pour for a really long time that my whole mind and body will be focused on that that I won’t be worried about anything else.

I’m hungry but I have no energy or effort to eat. I’m tired but I don’t want to sleep for fear of nightmares.

I really need a big cuddle and someone to tell me that I’ll be okay, I’ll be fixed. But at the same time I don’t want someone to lie to me.

I wish my psychologist and pills had fixed me. I don’t want to feel broken. I don’t want to feel like a disappointment and yet that’s all I feel right now. No matter what anyone tells me, my own self-hatred stops me from feeling happy. :’(

people make me sick,

It’s nice to see him really enjoy something.:) (Taken with instagram)

TMI Tuesday

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elizathornb3rry:

1. Are looks important in a relationship?
2. Are relationships ever worth it?
3. Are you a virgin?
4. Are you in a relationship?
5. Are you in love?
6. Are you single this year?
7. Can you commit to one person?
8. Describe your crush:
9. Describe your perfect mate:
10. Do you believe in love at first sight?
11. Do you ever want to get married?
12. Do you forgive betrayal?
13. Do you get jealous easily?
14. Do you have a crush on anyone?
15. Do you have any piercings?
16. Do you have any tattoos?
17. Do you like kissing in public?
18. Do you masturbate?
19. Do you shave your neither regions?
20. Do you shower every day?
21. Do you think someone has feelings for you?
22. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
23. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?
24. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?
25. Do you want to be in a relationship this year?
26. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?
27. Has someone ever written a song or poem for you?
28. Have you ever been cheated on?
29. Have you ever cheated on someone?
30. Have you ever considered plastic surgery? If so, what would you change about your body?
31. Have you ever cried over a guy/girl?
32. Have you ever experienced unrequited love?
33. Have you ever had sex with a man?
34. Have you ever had sex with a woman?
35. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?
36. Have you ever liked one of your best friends?
37. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?
38. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?
39. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?
40. Have you ever written a song or poem for someone?
41. Have you had sex so far this year?
42. How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander?
43. How long was your longest relationship?
44. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had?
45. How many people did you kiss in 2011?
46. How many times did you have sex last year?
47. How old are you?
48. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?
49. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her?
50. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?
51. Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for?
52. Is there anyone you’ve given up on? Why?
53. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?
54. Is there someone you will never forget?
55. Share a relationship story.
56. State 8 facts about your body:
57. Things you want to say to an ex:
58. What are five ways to win your heart?
59. What do you look like? (Post a picture!)
60. What is the biggest age difference between you and any of your partners?
61. What is the first thing you notice in someone?
62. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you?
63. What is your definition of “having sex”?
64. What is your definition of cheating?
65. What is your favourite foreplay routine?
66. What is your favourite roleplay?
67. What is your idea of the perfect date?
68. What is your sexual orientation?
69. What turns you off?
70. What turns you on?
71. What was your kinkiest wet dream?
72. What words do you like to hear during sex?
73. What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you?
74. What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for?
75. What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you?
76. What’s the sweetest thing you’ve ever done for someone?
77. What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships?
78. What’s your dirtiest secret?
79. When was the last time you felt jealous? Why?
80. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?
81. Who are five people you find attractive?
82. Who is the last person you hugged?
83. Who was your firstkiss with?
84. Why did your last relationship fail?
85. Would you ever date someone off of the Internet?
86. You’ll love me if:

We have so much food in the house right now.

I don’t actually know what to eat… :’( the choices go on and on.

The “turn off” “turn on” game. Ask me anything and I will answer if it is a turn off or turn on.

stfumadison:

The head crusher was widely used during most of the Middle Ages, especially the Inquisition. With the chin placed over the bottom bar and the head under the upper cap, the torturer slowly turned the screw pressing the bar against the cap.

This resulted in the head being slowly compressed. First the teeth are shattered into the jaw; then the victim slowly died with agonizing pain, but not before his eyes were squeezed from his sockets.

This instrument was a formidable way to extract confessions from victims as the period of pain could be prolonged for many hours if the torturer chose to. This could be done by repeatedly turning the screw both ways.

If the torture was stopped midway, the victim often had irreparable damage done to the brain, jaw or eyes.

Many variants of this instrument existed, some that had small containers in front of the eyes to receive them as they fell out of their sockets.